i really dont know what to do. ive always loved running since i was in p2. the passion started forming and soon i was the best female runner in pri sch as what my coach told me. i loved running so damn bloody much. then the coach pulled me into track. i continued with hockey as my first cca though. then when i entered boon lay i was so pissed. cos there was no hockey. but i was freaking overjoyed cos there's track! okay cross-country. unfortunately, i was allocated to vball. -.- okay fine joined track anyway regardless what that bong said. loved running all the way til sec3. shins' splint. great. both shins injured. i took a bloody break and from then on, my freaking stamina dropped all the bloody way to my toes. so heartbreaking! it's like.. not some dumb typical break-up-with-a-boyfriend kind of feeling. it's so much worse. my eight-year passion cheating on me. okay not cheating on me. i made a mistake to rest. cos nevertheless, this pain followed me all the way til today, 17th jan 2007. blah. stupid freaking break indeed. last time it was like the more i run the more i love it. now it's like. the more i run the more i hate it? i asked ms azlin whrthr can i step down as vice-capt or not. then doris can just replace me. ms azlin gave me a week to think over. i even told her i wanted to quit sch team. just join the recreational team la. whatever. this saturday having a race at ngee ann. if i dont go, the whole girls team cant go. so of cos i have to go. sigh.. i dont want to pull the team down? but then why should i continue if i hate running? okay blah. i have a week to think through. a bloody week. ive thought about quiting track totally since the ending of november last yr. now im given a week to think through abt not quiting sch team and not stepping down. if i quit, i cant turn back and cry over spilt milk. if i dont quit, im just stressing my shins and my heart out and wasting precious time. my 8 year passion versus wasting time and stressing my shins. ):? this has otally ruined my mood for the whole training just now. ):
emmeline.4th may 1991. 15 plus plus plus yrs old.
im like a clam til i warm up to you. it takes plenty of time & chemistry.
im impatient & my mouth has the ability to shoot if im in that "grrr" mood.
love people with wonderful sense of humour. too much cold jokes, i cant take.
love being part of HZE(Haykel, Zhijuan, Emm). love Tappity.
love playing games & shopping & reading & suntanning & talking. depends on who the partner is. (: im pretty biased.
love running but currently the passion seems to be fading away. ):
love a lot of things & people.
i hate liars & troublemakers. no bitching or bastard-ing please.
i hate people who cause physical or emotional harm on purpose esp when it comes to matters of the heart.
all humans cannot be trusted.
what is love.
Natasha Bedingfield I Wanna Have Your Babies
Nelly Furtado All Good Things (come to an end)
Nelly Furtado Say It Right
Nelly Furtado ft Timbaland & Justin Timberlake Give It To Me
KT Tunstall Suddenly I See
The Fray How To Save A Life
Lily Allen Littlest Things
