& Thursday, August 31, 2006
haaz had fun and no more other comments but, i love my bestie! =D
Labels: friends; pals; bestie
( 9:21 PM )
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yay! ive bathed n changed! going out to meet steph sooooon! yep yep yep! =D just a msg n im outta here! hees. =] o well.. anyway leme blog first. im bored. hmmm.. today was supposed to be late day.. but kind old me reached sch 715 meet anqin to open the door for those super-early people. who knows! they duno the door open they stay downstairs. -.- waste my efforts n beauty slp. -.- being in-charge of keys is zzz.. o wells. anyway.. ACERS day? whatever. chair aerobics. HAH. concert was pretty okay. ms sandra is a natural on stage! thats what doris said. haaz. =) hmmmmm.. mr tan had something on so he cldnt come back.. o well.. hmmmmmmm. everything ended n doris anqin n i went separate ways. haas.. bukit panjang.. o wells. off to play a game!Labels: friends; pals; bestie
( 11:20 AM )
& Monday, August 28, 2006
im exhausted. im sad. im moody. im teary. im anything but happy. lemme dig a hole and hibernate til i get well. this is hard to go on. im bursting. those bottling of my troubles is taking a toll. im going downhill. at a very fast rate. please understand if in school im like so dead at times. im so not in a happy mood. blah. whatever. ):Labels: feelings.
( 8:26 PM )
& Friday, August 25, 2006
o wells. im here. nothing much to update la. CAs come and go. results flying everywhere, in every direction. my heart is flying out of the window.
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love is just a chemical reaction in the brain caused by surges of phenylethylamine.
people are attracted to one another and pair up to breed due to our natural mating instincts. but that attraction doesnt last. as with all drugs, the body develops a tolerance for the phenylethylamine and eventually, the attraction you once fet for your partner fades. it's all perfectly natural. you can get the same amount of phenylethylamine, a stimulant the mind craves, by ingesting vast amount of chocolate as you can by, quote falling in love, endquote.
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tell me this isnt so. ):
blink 182- what went wrong
[tom]
I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy
That he's lost and alone, yeah
I hate our favorite restaurant, favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
And never answer the phone
I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life
I'm sick of always hearing
Sappy love songs on the radio
This place is fucking cursed in it's plague
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes
I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong [x4]
I'm kickingLabels: school. grrr.
( 3:45 PM )
& Sunday, August 20, 2006
okay.. im going to start studying hard n really concentrate in class starting from tmr. im going to shut myself from the world of slacking. im going to take down notes n stop doodling on my table cover during lesson times. i'll try not to msg during lessons and im going to try not to dream. im going to try getting extra lessons from mrs ramesh for maths n im going to get extra lessons for poa.. im going to try hard to forget that our relationship is hanging by the edge. i'll forget everything. everything. til end of his Os and end of my EOY exams.. i duno whrthr will all this screw things up furthur or whatsoever but im just going to try try try! if things end btwn exams im real sorry. yes im going to be sad but o well. if things doesnt end..i tell you huh i'll seriously jump for joy n thank everything even the polar bear n the turtle which i moan to every night before slping. anyway.. o yesyes. im going to try to achieve what i said i'll try to do. (: sure hopes exams come n go soon.. =] im going to be one good girl. =] o yes.. for the last time til end of his Os.. i seriously truly love my sweet honey. no matter what. pple may laugh pple may go n tsktsk me. pple may think im silly,but hey. isnt love silly anyway?? o wells. im outta here.Labels: school. grrr.
( 9:57 PM )
& Saturday, August 19, 2006
19th.. haas.. it has been 6 months.. since we both exhchanged our secrets of having feelings for each other to each other. 6 months flew by so fast. haas.. ): nothing much tday.. woke up arnd 11 plus plus plus. ate beakfast during lunch time. -.- okay whatever. went down for "walk-a-jog" with doris. LOL. walked all the way to the NTU there, jogging only when crossing roads. heh. hmmm.. real nice.. =] hmmm.. reached home 4 plus.. nothing much.. going to do tution hmwk later.. hmmm.. okay whatever. im not in the mood. bye.Labels: feelings.
( 5:43 PM )
& Friday, August 18, 2006
nothing much. i really not in the mood these few days la. smile smile smile. it's getting tiring. chi CA today.. whatever just did n stoned. self-traing cos mr rudy ng appearently is on MC again. whats up man. hmmm.track.. o well. suhaizat is mad at me for god knows what reason and he isnt speaking to me properly. if it is abt some junior i think he better cool down la. this is getting on my nerves kay. one small thing ruin our close friendship? no way man. uh-uh. i duno whats wrong la. where the hell is my enlightenment? what should i do?? relationship.. track.. education everything. whatever. im just going to start mugging next week n stone. not going to bother anymore. im just giving him one last chance. after that im just truly not going to bother anymore. til after the exams la. aiya heck la. im sick of everything. i hate this. ): i want to wake up from this nightmare..Labels: feelings.
( 7:56 PM )
& Thursday, August 17, 2006
nothing much today. met hilary and doris and went to school early in the morning! just to return joel and his friends the soccer ball. =.= actually haiyer. thought anthy or melvyn would keep the ball..so was playing with hilary n melvyn with the ball.. never did we thought that they guys will just walk away without taking the ball. =.= zzz.. hmmmm.. nothing much tday. didnt feel like talking much. ): im sad. im sad. im sad sad sad.Labels: track
( 5:06 PM )
& Wednesday, August 16, 2006
nothing much. mr rudy didnt come so pe was extra phys lesson. lol. had some test. hey mr jamiel's last lesson. though i dont pay attention during his lessons, but o well.. i'll miss him! so far hes the best el tcher ive ever had this yr! though hes just another relief tchers.. ): o wells. hmmm.. nothing much. some stuffs happened n o well.. shldnt say much here. in conclusion, i think that we human should not go against our conscience. (: some people shld just grow up and act their age. o well.. 15 yrs old or 14 plus isnt that old but at least shld have some sense in them alrdy. (: im not bad-mouthing or hinting anyone. just giving my own personal comments. =] hmmm.. training. was okay.. sigh. we really need mr tan n anthy n sy back man.. ):Labels: school. grrr.
( 8:25 PM )
& Tuesday, August 15, 2006
nothing much. haaz..htaik han forgot to bring my wksht. omg. im just lucky that tdy no need to do the presentation thing. hmmm. lit test o whatever. eng had the summary test. hah. nothing much to write.
i kept seeing you. it hurts so much to have no response. ive got to end this. even if i dont want to. Labels: school. grrr.
( 7:01 PM )
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okay im sort of done with el proj! yay! im not suppose to be so free,blogging but.. o well.. waiting for doris to accept the file then can zzz alrdy! (: hmmmm.. omg im like so heng can. ask htaik han help anqin n i print and he was like.. okay.. " you both are lucky cos im left with only 2 papers" LOL! haaz.. omg omg omg. phew. okay i just realise that now all ive got to do is help suhaizat do his share. wtf. hmmmm.. im real glad htaikhan is kind enough to hear me pour out my woes. haaz. thanks daddie! ure the best! (o well.. he wont see this anyway) =xLabels: school. grrr.
( 12:05 AM )
& Monday, August 14, 2006
nothing much. woke up 1015am realised ive to rush cos meeting doris and suhaizat at frontier at 11am for el proj. haaz. steph went to obs alrdy. hope everything's fine over there. (: now..they shld be cooking dinner? haaz.. hmmmm.. nothing much.. saw alot of sch pple at library. haaz.. chin kang is extremely hilarious and yesyes kenneth too. haaz.. hmmmm.. reached home full of hiccups. happy birthday to shuyi! =] shes in obs now too. LOL. hmmm.. hello everyone. call me miss sad. Labels: friends; pals; bestie
( 7:13 PM )
& Sunday, August 13, 2006
nothing much to update. streat parade was nice. ice-creams were nice. some people were nasty. i thought they were good. o well.. never judge people by their appearence. or how other people judge them. hmmm. so be it. hey mixed signals are being sent. im confused. enlighten me,someone.Labels: random
( 6:08 PM )
& Saturday, August 12, 2006
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. im here to blog! heh. hmm.. ytd.. nothing much.. lit test was postponed and ms sandra was really cute. haaz.. hmmm.. eng compre ca. quite okay la. cos no summary. =x hmmmm.. ss.. yay i passed my hist n it's purely tyco! =x hmmm.. recess.. yadda.. the streat parade shirt "damn nice" la. chi.. the tcher kept shouting. o man.. haaz.. wendy was entertaining me behind and ya that really cheered me up la. was quite moody intially. haaz. yaya.. WENDY I LOVE YOU! hahax.. big?? big?? big enough?? haaz.. hmmmm.. then then. training.. nothing much.. was rather short. and hey.. i didnt get to meet him up to "talk things up" so.. things are still unsettled.. im real confused of what i should do.o heck! anyway lemme cont. hmmm.. after training went home bathe n out again! met anthony,sze ying, kavin,suria,norman and suhaizat with doris. haaz.. went to watch the fireworks thingy. was nice. heez. then ate macs along s'pore river? haaz.. yup! o man ytd was really beautiful. not the fireworks. okay..yes, the fireworks. but the whole outing thingy was beautiful. heez. o man i so totally love bl track team la! =D really nice to bond tgthr. heez.. hmmm.. thennnnnnnnnnn.. took the train and hey. managed to catch the last train! haaz.. reach home arnd 12 plus or 1.. haaz.. streat parade later. -.- hmmmm.. he had a b3 for his chi. haaz.. he reached his targate! haaz.. im so proud of him.. =] o well..Labels: school. grrr.
( 11:57 AM )
& Thursday, August 10, 2006
haaz didnt update ytd cos didnt really have the time nor mood. heh. hmmmm.. hols for tdy n ytd. o wow. -.- hmmmm.. ytd went to eat lunch with my mother's side of the family and ooooooh i loved the mango pudding! heh. my cousins were so cute esp frederick and o man! i bet he'll have many girls falling over his feet. =x heh. so charming and everything o gosh! okay im insane anyway ya.. nothing much went shopping with sis ytd and hey! i wanted to buy lots of stuffs but looking at the long queues, o man. uh-uh. hmmm.. reached home arnd 6 plus and nothing much. tv-ed all the way til 11. heez. o well.. out of here!Labels: family
( 11:37 AM )
& Tuesday, August 08, 2006
lol. tdy really boring la. so post post post la. just came home from art park not long ago. haaz.. see the band guys play soccer. actually wanted to blade with doris la.. but too many pple alrdy.. plus suddenly very shy la. heh. =x o well.. here are the continuation of the pics for tdy..
pictures- celebration (track!)
shafie and norman!
anthony being surprisingly helpful..holding the pole for doris and i. heez..
o well.. though this pic is not really clear.. it's suria! (:
now i know why anthy was helpful- to fool around. wahaha! anyway.. it's hilary followed by anthy and then fatin and then sze ying was somehow caught in the photo too. teehee~
norman? yup.. norman doing "stunts" with the pole.
suhaizat. haha..
hilary! haaz..
all's well, ends well.. the track team! incomplete though.. -.- (back left to right).. kavin,suhaizat, suria..anthony.sze ying.. fatin and doris and me.. (front left to right) norman,ms azlin and hilary.Labels: track
( 6:19 PM )
&
pictures -celebration. (mascot and other stuffs.)
rahman. samsui wo-man. heh. and the class 1st banner.
class 2nd banner.
feng soon. tsk.
andrew.
-.-
raymond. 3/8's mascot.
seelan. 3/9's mascot.
okay.. no offense. -.-
later/ tmr then upload the track photos taken tdy. im lazy .Labels: school. grrr.
( 2:49 PM )
&
hmmm. was pretty busy. hmmm. ytd.. nothing much. followed wendy to buy the cloth n some other stuffs. then went to doris' house with doris to sew the clothes for rahman. decided to dress him up as samsui woman. haaz. he was cute.. hmmm. tdy had the celebration at jurong west stadium. o well. was pretty boring. after that went soccer-ing with the track gang and some of anthy's classmates and other friends. hmmm. nothing much. im sad. ):
-your mind made promises your body cant keep.-
thanks for letting me do the "thing". i appreciate you not wanting to hurt me. that was what SY heard from her friend. who should i believe? the whole world is giving me mixed-up signs. ):Labels: school. grrr.
( 1:38 PM )
& Saturday, August 05, 2006
nothing much. went sch meet rahman and suhaizat and doris abt the mascot thing. mascot change to rahman. haaz. played soccer cos no inspiration. was fun! =] went off arnd 1 plus? im not sure. went mac eat and decided to dress rahman up as..... lalala. walked arnd went back home. saw some soccer match thing in our sch field. suhaizat,rahman,doris and i watched awhile and off we go. (:
hey. do you know that i care. show some response please. if not you might as well ask me care for a plant or tree or something like that. at least in response to my care,they grow. it's better than caring for someone who has the ability to response but doesnt. im struggling through this extra mile, going all out. dont let me down. im begging you.Labels: school. grrr.
( 6:53 PM )
& Friday, August 04, 2006
nothing much. shall not blog much. i was so silly this morning. o well.. whats done is done. then lit.. okay.. -skip- race after sch! woo! the boys got 2nd! raffles guys was 1st. our sch not enough girls. o well. hmmm. nothing much. bye~ oya. ms chong can be real creative. i like! (:
double yay! mr edmund oh recognise me!
boo! aason and jun hao dont recognise me!
double boo! edmund really have the ability to piss me off like shit. o. edmund lim who's from my class. not edmund oh. =xLabels: random
( 10:03 PM )
& Thursday, August 03, 2006
hmmmmmm. nothing much tdy.. got the monitors badge..? zzzz.. hey im just so very glad i passed my chem re-tst and i have a feeling i'll pass my poa though i wont get good grades for it. i hope things cont to improve. yup..
i really dont know who to trust,
what to believe,who to listen to.
i really dont know who are the fakes
and who are the reals.
i dont see how people can be so rude and cold,
be smiling and cheerful or even helpful.
i c ant adjust quick to changes,
i really cant,im so sorry.
i dont know who is trying to help me
or who is trying to make things worse.
i dont want to fall any deeper,
no more deeper..
it hurts.Labels: school. grrr.
( 3:20 PM )
& Wednesday, August 02, 2006
cherish- unappreciated
I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
And I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated
[Verse 1:]
Woke up this morning and saw your face
And you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see,
Where you want to be.
And lately it ain't been the same at all.
When you're here its like I'm invisible
I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.
Cause I'm feeling
[Chorus:]
I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
And I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.
[Verse 2:]
Lately our house is not a home
You come in, take a shower and then say I'm gone.
What am I to do
When my heart says leave
But my feet won't move
And today is our anniversary
And you haven't even said two words to me
I'm trying hard to give you another chance
But ooh baby I'm feeling
I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
And I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.
[Verse 3:]
Oh when I first met you
I thought you was the most perfect man
That I ever seen
I still don't understand why
You treat me like you do
I use to give into your lies
But now I see the truth
Oh no I don't want to hear it I'm through
Yea I know I'll still be missing you
But it's not worth the pain
That I've gained from you
You make me feel
Unappreciated
[Chorus:]
I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.
Don't love me no more
Heeey wooo hooo
I'm really feeling unappreciated.
I'm feeling unappreciated
Labels: feelings., lyrics
( 11:47 PM )
&
nothing much.. just feeling sad and pondering over stuffs.. tdy's our 4th month. cheers.Labels: feelings.
( 8:18 PM )
& Tuesday, August 01, 2006
love has a split personality.love is beautiful when you're in it. love turns into one ugly monster you never knew it would be when you feel the love going away. love brings happiness. it's not suppose to bring sorrow but it still does. love is a naughty thing who doesnt listen to how you want it to go. love makes you cry- tears of joy/tears of unhappiness. love is so silly that it makes you want to slap it. love is such a bless that you want it to stay for eternity. love has two feet. it can walk away anytime it wants. love has its own mind. it decides what it wants to do regardless of what you want it to do. o well. you are love anyway.Labels: feelings.
( 6:51 PM )
&
o goodness..i can be really nasty with my words when im feeling shitty. im sorry. o well.. tmr's our 4thmonth. o well.. o well..im trying my best, struggling through the extra mile. i hope he is too.Labels: school. grrr.
( 5:09 PM )
