& Wednesday, May 31, 2006
hmmmmm..today morn.. went out last min in the morn to get dearie's present..? heez. THANKS NAZ! =D so kind-hearted to follow me. heh. i seriously duno what to choose la. scared i regret so call someone along. heh. =x once again.. THANKS NAZ! heh. =x went cityhall walked..? then browse around.. omg. im in love with one of the shop la. haaz. next time go thr buy everything. heez. =D in the end the prezzie i bought from there too. heez. =D went suntec too..? haaz. walked walked walked.. one clock very nice too! but i set my sights on the other prezzie from the other shop at the other building alrdy. so..yup.. next time! heez. =x after that bought some food to eat..sit around.. and trained back to boon lay whr naz ate her "lunch" at jp. haaz. saw some friends and yup! yay! i grew taller! =D heh. =P went traing after that and yup.. met bear for 1 min..? asked him to pass me the penguin i bought for him to do something for our 2 months. (: heh. didnt want to get anything initially..but.. since so long never really meet up alrdy so.. yupyup.. get him something to let him know i still care! haaz.. okay fine. laugh all u want. zzz.. lit camp tmr! ): fri is our anni! ): fri come home from camp then back to sch in the aftnn for traing..? ): maybe going to skip it! heh. =x
our love. (:Labels: feelings.
( 8:27 PM )
& Tuesday, May 30, 2006
hmm..boring..im so bored k. woke up relatively early. heh. yadda yadda.. did some tution hmwk n flew to the com. changed song to cascada's everytime we touch. i want the slower version one! cos sounds nicer. =x er whatever. both also nice la. next time have the slower version one then put. heh. ah..whatever. some pics of ytd's training..
ah ling and i! =D
nice sky right? nothing was edited! =D
track buddies! =D (doris,me and vani) =DLabels: track
( 12:35 PM )
& Monday, May 29, 2006
the corrs-all the love in the world
I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world
Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...
(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)
hmm....
Labels: lyrics
( 6:58 PM )
&
haaz..traing today.. woke up late. heh. but still..made it to school with doris only 5 mins late! heh. =x or was it 10..? o well.. anyway. yupyup. went macritchie. haaz. leisure run..? HAH. took some pics but im lazy to upload all so o well.. some will do.. hmm.. havent even run 1/2 way only during the starting im already in need of the toilet already! i was like.. run run run.. then.. "vani! i need to go to the toilet!" heh. in the end we ran all the way no toilet! must run til our destination then u-turn back to the starting point where we done our warm-up and will do warm-down,where there is toilet then can. o gosh. i never felt so.. so.. = before. heh. somemore running with a bag of waterbottles..? dont know how many Ks..? ): from now on i'll learn how to appreciate toilets. heh. bus-ed back and yup. bear no.1 had his chi Os today..? he said it was okay except for compre. o well..im sure he'll do well.. =D heez. anyway.. didnt go phys remedial in the end cos they said pass-ers no need to go.. so just passed up hmwk then went off to play. heez. then.. lalala.. went home with aching muscles.. zzz.. o well.. i feel wierd. ):Labels: track
( 6:19 PM )
& Saturday, May 27, 2006
hmmm..ytd was PTI everything went okay..quite okay.. til my dad went to see mr soh. omg man. he was assigned to see mr yip only and everything went so good. heh. til my dad said.. " is it possible to see emmeline's poa teacher after ive seen you?" o man! mr yip should have said no! =x but..yaya.. he said "of cos" and my heart zoomed all the way down to my feet. zzz.. mr soh said good stuffs.. until.. "however she shows no interest in poa" o wow. i agree but still.. haaz. anyway.. yup.. my results were no good n the percentage was like.. !%#@%!!^! haaz. my position was 8 even though the percentage was low..?!?!?!?! after that zj n doris n andrew came to my hse and we played card games n everything while zj used com. heez. went back school around 3..? doris n zj n andrew went off earlier.. had traing at 3.30..? omg. i seriously felt like a blob of fatness when i ran! but at least.. yupyup. my shins never hurt! =D i think they fully recovered..? yay! hope its forever. =D hmm.. so tired ytd.. haaz. tdy went for flag day..? doris andrew anqin n i went tgthr after meeting up. heez. was fun fun fun! heez. even when to michelle hse to slack n watch vcd n anqin n andrew had maggie mee while doris n i watched vcd. haaz. first was some love japanese love show..? very very nice! then after that watched la pi xiao xin. haaz. =D then went back jp. heez. returned the thingy while michelle started her shift..? doris n anqin n i went to eat then went home shortly..? reached home around 4.30..? bathed n watched tv then dinner then tution hmwk then here n i know this is getting boring. haaz.. anyway.. yupyup. changed song. heez. kci & jojo-All My Life. heez. i love love love love this song. haaz. next time if i get married i want this song. =D haaz. =x Lifehouse's You And ME also can. or or or Cascada's Everytime We Touch. or... atomic kitten's alot of songs. heh. =D or Girls Aloud's Jump. heez. or ashlee simpson's L-O-V-E. heh. or or or.. hmmmmmm.. oooooooh alot! heh. for all i know i dont get married. =x heh. or i put all and then got dj and all those song dedication thingy. heh. =x i know i think too much. heh. =x im bored la. dont blame me. anyway.. yup.. back to this song---> all my life. i really love this song. heh. so sweet n lovely! haaz. =D
All My Life by K-Ci & Jojo
album: Love Always (1997)
Baby (x11)
I'm So Glad...
I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You More Precious Than You
Girl (boy =x) You Are.. Close To Me Just Like My Mother, Close To Me Just Like MFather, Close To Me Just Like My Sister, Close To Me Just Like My Brother And You Are The Only One My Everything And For You This Song I Sing....
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby
Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You So Much
All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
Repeat Chorus Till Fade
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
heez. (: 6 more days to 2 months. (:
Labels: school. grrr.
( 9:20 PM )
& Thursday, May 25, 2006
hmmmmm.. boring boring boring.. thursday late day..? almst late. heh. almost! heez. hmmm.. bored.. maths..? hmmm.. m.tongue..? recess! =D heh. eng..? tcher didnt come.. so was zzz.. lit..? okay la.. lit camp.. zzz.. poa.. did all my corrections! =D went for the cooking competition..? haaz.. doris this morn 6 plus..?!?!?!?! last min msg me to help her. haaz. so i was like.. okay! since im going to be so bored in the aftnn anyway. heez.we got the dont know what consolation prize..? haaz.. we were like almst doing the least work one lo! we cut the ingredients (carrot n salmon), then doris boiled the spagethhi (shit i forgot how to sepll), then we waited for the spagh to boil.. so while waiting we were like.. joking and talking for half an hour..? haaz. then boiled we added the spagh sauce and carrot n tomato n salmon..? mixed n decorated it.. then poured powdered cheese on top.. wrapped the bowl of spgh with aluminium foil.. baked the thing and waited for 20 mins for it to be baked?! then done! haaz. washed up and talked somemore. heh. then.. taadaa! was shocked, nonono.. pleasantly shocked, that we got some kind of prize. haaz. mila n her partner got 1st.. 2nd was rahmizah n her partner..? 3rd i think fahmi n his partner. haaz. lalala. went canteen after that to eat. heh. =D saw bear with his friends. he cut his hair!!! =D i rmb how i love to play his just-cut hair. heh. i miss it messing up. heh. drats man. hmmmm.. dumb me. forgot to give him the chocolate. ): we're pract strangers. o well. anyway. im seriously anticipating the end of his chi Os though its not the end of the major Os. hmm.. o well.. he'll be going to malacca..? during the june hols for the geog fieldtrip..? im going to rot. haaz. at least thrs traings to entertain me. =x sigh. kavin is right. i have to rmb about hp bills. sigh. ): o well.. sigh. pti tmr.. i seriously hope n pray n beg that the tcher im suppose to see is not mr soh! anyone BUT mr soh!!!!!!!!! PLEASEEEEEE! ):
why do people have to be heartless and unforgiving. why when we were good friends in the past then due to some quarrels we all turn cold and not treasure the past we have when we were once so close..? we were so close thats teasing and sarcasm went too far but still shaked hands and cont to be friends. so why now have to be so cold-hearted and unforgiving..? why cant you just let it go and move on..? forgive and forget! whats the use of hating him and calling him names and everything. he still complains to me how people call you names and feels sad for you. he still cares for you, you know..i really dont want you to cont hating and bad-mouthing him.. since he is sorry.. accept it.. i know its easier said than done. but o well.. what for hate when you can love..? what for add oil to the fire when we can use water to put the fire out..? what for burn everything away, let everything go to waste when we spent so much time and feelings, happiness and tears building the friendship. i dont believe that the friendship once so close and strong cannot be saved.. ): i really hate to listen to all of you bad-mouthing him and all that. it pierce my heart twice. once- to hear a once close friend to the victim of the bad-mouther and me bad-mouthing the victim. second time- to know that youre not making an effort to save that friendship and the keen feeling of unforgiveness makes me feel so bad when i hear you bad-mouth him when u were really once so close tgthr. can you bear to forget all the laughters and competitiveness and sarcastic but harmless teasings..? ):Labels: school. grrr.
( 8:16 PM )
& Wednesday, May 24, 2006
hmm..zzz.. today.. phys was like.. ?!?!?! haaz. filing..wkbk.. class work. zzz.. pe was zzz too.. the girls didnt want to play capt ball cos of the "hot sun" and doris n i were like so freaking bored. in the end went to play with the sec 2s capt ball. haaz. cos they were playing and coincidentally jupiter verses venus.. so mdm rohimah say can join in so we join lo. haaz.se was.. boring.. recess! yay! eating time! =D heh. =x after that was hist..? zzz.. filing again.. zzz.. then chinese..? ran down to photocopy hist notes. =D now my file is perfect! =D heh. chinese was sosososososo boring. e maths after that. blah. then dismissed! so tiring after that! i lost my phys content pg in like.. 1 min?!?!?! one min ii was holding it and the next its like cannot be found..?!?!?!?! rasn down to photocopy. came up was sweating like mad. then realised no divider. so ran down to buy too! 2 dollars 40 cents and i only use 3 of the whole packet..?!?!?!?! %$@%^!$ hmm. on the way back anthy called..? at first tot a boy (who looked alot like andrew and apparently wearing mercury shirt too!!!) call me. i was like.. huh? walk closer realised it wasnt andrew. =x so paiseh. heh. then realised it was anthy. heh. he said dearie was crying..? i was like.. huh?! took a small peep at him n realised it was the chilli too hot,i presume, that made him sweat n then roll into his eyes..? haaz. lol. hmm. then.. yadda. anthy said "he ask me to return you your calculator". fine. took it and stormed away. not really. i stormed silently. =x anyway he forgot to return the unbrella n pen. heh. =x anthy is so lame okay. help bear pay money to keep my umbrella cos bear like it too much..? sacrifice his own money eh. -.- hmm.. traing was cancelled..? just as well cos i spent 1 hour plus doing phys correction!!!!!!! ): ! so many boys got their books flunged over the railings cos of wrong or incomplete corrections after 3 chances..? then they must run down collect. heh. im so damn lucky kay! mr yip gave me 6 chances..? and in the end still never throw my book downstairs. heh. =D maybe cos im a girl! haaz. =x hmm.. after that went back class pack bag with doris andrew and anqin. haaz. lalala. then went frontier with doris. =D i love Old Chang Kee! =D like what i told doris, " 2 currypuffs a day (from old chang kee) keep the doctor away!" heh. =D im in love! with currypuffs! =xLabels: school. grrr.
( 7:58 PM )
& Tuesday, May 23, 2006
haaz..today was okay.. lit..? quite interesting.. (: then.. hist..? was okay.. kept grumbling to doris about "how i cant think when my stomach is making noise". heh. super hungry man!! recess time i was like.. =D =D =D =D =D =D ! doris said she has never seen me so alert when the bell rang before. heh. =x food what. what do you think. heez. =P then.. POA..? drats. -skip- hmm.. ang was sooooooooooooooooo.. zzz.. filing sucks! i hate it! cos my worksheets will be all over the place then must pack neatly,punch holes, re-arrange, find missing ones etc. o gosh. 1/2 my life gone. then.. stayed back for chem. filing again!! repeat the process again. zzz.. another 1/2 life gone. then.. maths. filing again! ): i thought i lost my midyr papers man! ran home with andrew kindly accompanying me to help me find. doris ps-ed cos she had tution. =x in the end went back to school worriedly cos cldnt dig out any midyr papers. ): in the end.. found mrs ramesh and she was like.. " it's with me!" LOL. i was like. sian. 1 whole life gone. -.- im left with negative 1 life. heh. hmm. then.. she checked everything.. yadda. asked me any external probs troubling me or not. blah. wierd. hmm.. i realise that she can be really nice when it's one-to-one. =] shall approach her for help whenever i need help. (: im going to be one guai(1) student from now onwards. (: heh. =x
whats going on in my head,i wonder
everything's going haywire.
i guess it's to my bed i'll retire,
sorting my thoughts out, i ponder.
Labels: school. grrr.
( 7:06 PM )
& Monday, May 22, 2006
today is monday.. zzz.. so boring.. sch's boring..reading.. chem.. sel.. pe.. all so boring.. maths... eng.. zzz.. cant we have some excitement in our daily life..? was slacking at the back of the class with doris pract. the whole day..file and book-checking.. book checking and files.. tsk. boring. assembly was incredibly boring too. ms ho was nagging. saw mr johnny tan n ms tan ju-ann or whatever her name is nodding off. haaz. edwin fell aslp too followed by yong xiang who was behind me. haaz. see how boring ms ho's nag can be. this is so boring. 1 more week til dearie's chi Os over. yay..hmm. i serioudly dont want to go for lit camp.. can anyone find some excuse for me..? haaz.......Labels: school. grrr.
( 6:35 PM )
& Sunday, May 21, 2006
haaz. just finish my dinner! im bloated! x.x had tution earlier on.. zzz.. maths is making me o.O zzz.. im bored. so terribly bored. sigh. tmr is back to school day. yay! pe! hope its not measure weight. u.u o man i dont want to go to lit camp.. zzz.. im so not looking forward to it man! zzz.. lit camp. of all the camps! why cant we have PE camp or what. lit camp indeed. ): sigh.
o dear whats going on in my head?
looks like ive got to retire to bed.
but somehow i just keep tossing and turning,
thinking and thinking.
brooding over what,i dont know.
all i know is that it makes me low.Labels: feelings.
( 7:57 PM )
& Saturday, May 20, 2006
hmmmmmmmm..today went to the young leaders thingy talk..? it was quite okay except for the after lunch part. cos was quite full and was supposedly "napping time". heh. =x it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freezing cold!!!!!! >=/ i was shivering n chattering away! the last i felt this cold was wayyyyy back when bear n i were in jurong east library. haaz.. but that was when it was happily "downpouring" thats why very cold. =x but now! SIGH. outside sun so warm n baking inside like what..? north pole..? heez. =} north pole.. heh. hmmmmm.. was quite okay la. last part nodding away.. zzz.. i wonder why some pple simply love to get into the limelight. zzz.. boring. skipped mrs ramesh's remedial cos of the talk! =D heh. =x hmmmmmm.. boring day..... ):
where'd you go?
i miss you so..
seems like it's been forever
since youve been gone
please come back home..
Labels: school. grrr.
( 9:49 PM )
& Friday, May 19, 2006
hmmmmmmmmmmm.. got back sort of all the results alrdy..? sigh.
eng p1---> i forgot.
eng p2---> i forgot.
eng overall---> 60/110
chi---> 61/100
emaths--->57/100 (gosh.)
chem p1---> 15/20
chem p2--->37/65
phys p1---> not back yet.
phys p2--->41.5/65..? not sure over what.
ss---> 20/30
hist---> 16/30 (screwed up at essay -.- )
pure lit---> 30/50..
poa---> flunk it like nobody's business..? 30/100 (at least i improved -.- )
no more i guess.. man. im going to so totally buck up on everything man. sigh. bear did badly for mye.. ): anyway.. traing resumed today! o boy i felt totally like one blob of fatness running! at least my shins didnt really hurt much..? haaz.. hope recovered! =] man.. tmr got the young leaders talk thingy..? i made jing wee promise to wake me up if i fall aslp! (:Labels: school. grrr.
( 8:23 PM )
& Thursday, May 18, 2006
emm you can do it! 2 weeks passed and u survived! only 10 more days to go! =D think about long term goals! =D the Os is impt! next yr is your turn! study hard! =D this is only the Os! wait til he goes NS! so better be prepared! =D
zzz.. what fool do you take me for..? a stupid fool who consoles herself. sigh.
ghor hou shiong hou shiong hou shiong lei. ):Labels: feelings.
( 5:06 PM )
& Wednesday, May 17, 2006
hmmmmmm.im really boredddddd! changed skin and everything. still bored! ): seriously bored. so glad sch's starting tmr! finally! after staying at home since last friday! zzz man! though im not 24/7 at home..but still.. im borrrrrrrrred! ): i shall go look for more food. =x o noooo.. i can hear mr tan saying this sentence during pe already! " emmeline..ure in taf club." o gosh! o well.. dieting starting tmr! =D milo excused. =P
before.
after.. [[my hair gone. ): ]]
heez. playing with someone's specs. heh. =x
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okay.i admit. im seriously bored can.
cute right?! haaz. the words are actually " First,no one is going to tell you about it.It's like walking around all day with a sign on your back that says -kick me-. you must discover it for yourself." CUTE RIGHT?! heez.
another cute pic! the words are, " so we rush,rush,rush to get to a certain ideal point in our life,and then what?" heez. yup.exactly..and then what?
the cutest photo! the words are, "just listen to your heart and use your head" super cute man! heez.
okay.this is super classic. haaz! =} the words are actually.. "why is it that when passions are imflamed we choose to argue and fight,when dancing the cha-cha is less injurous,far more enjoyable, and equally effective in resolving tension." heez. yupyup. WHY?! heh.
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o well.. heez. all these pics are from a book called The Meaning Of Life.
the cover page. (:
the back page! (:
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it's a good read and quite humourous actually. heez. with all the cute animals.insects,fish pics inside. heez. too bad. not in s'pore. sigh. ): cant get for him one too. haaz. o well..at least i have one! heez. okay. great. i sound like a silly fool giving free advertisement for this book. haaz.
Labels: feelings.
( 2:15 PM )
& Tuesday, May 16, 2006
haaz.. hmmm..went out with zj! =D haaz. supposingly with haykel too! but that ps kia didnt come cos of some school stuffs. what the heck huh. made zj n i walk from gek poh to his house (which is just opp my blk) for fun! then walk back to gekpoh to collect the photo for IC. heh. hmmm.. went to make IC with zj then. oya! i finally had my long-awaited nasi lemak and oreo ice blended! =D heez! =D okay.. anyway.. my ez-link card get stuck in the machine again! the damn machine was okay one lo.then i topped up my card and collected the reciept n waiting for the card to come out the whole thing just hanged and the machine changed sign to "not in use" or something like that. -.- sick. haaz. anyway.. after making IC.. went shopping..window-shopping.. at bugis.. heez. oyesyesyes. the auntie at my IC registration counter was sooooooooo talkative! cldnt believe i have mroe of my dad's mixed genes. -.- what the heck. haaz.. anyway at least shes friendly. haaz.hmmmmmmm.. it was fun overall cos i finally got to go out with zj! yay! i got to go out with her more. haaz. kind of missing her more since we're in separate classes and with not even one subj in the same class! ): hmm.. o well.. IMISSHIM! ): i know it's getting pathetic. but.. sigh.
Labels: friends; pals; bestie
( 6:58 PM )
& Monday, May 15, 2006
hmm..yupyup.. i cant believe i survived 11 days! ): zzz.. hmm.today the cupboard came! i was like.. grrrrrrrrrrr! finally! at 1 plus it was "on the way". at 4 or alittle after 4..? it finally sashayed into my room! =] haaz! yay! no more creakity cupboard doors! yay! haaz.. today was so boring! ): tmr going to make ic and then watch movie with HZE! =D hope nothing goes wrong.. (: hope mr yewbearbear's paper was okay.. haaz. o man.. ): i duno if i cont to survive for zxzxzx days not seeing bearno.1! bear no.2 is not enough. ):Labels: feelings.
( 7:30 PM )
& Sunday, May 14, 2006
hmm.mothers' day today.. haaz. gave my room a makeover. haaz. shifted everything to different positions. heez. and the new cupboards will be coming over tmr! =D it's about time actually.. haaz. hmm. but bcos of the cupboards coming tmr,i cant watch movie with HZE tmr! ): SOBS! my precious When A Stranger Calls! ): i dun care! im going to watch it with zj on tues after making ic! =D heh. and after my nasi lemak of cos! =D heh. =x hmmm..dearie's SIM card is finally working! haaz. he changed number! noooooooooooooooo.. just when i finally memorised his no. heh. =x nvm. im lovely! i'll just start memorising sooner or later anyway. haaz! im bored can. stupid hols. cant suntan with doris. something cropped up at her side..? haaz.. nvm.. JUNE HOLS. lalala! ): why do pple love to "wish upon a star" ? nvm. i wish.. my hair will faster grow out! heh. no la.. i wish....... *shhh..* (:Labels: feelings.
( 7:30 PM )
& Saturday, May 13, 2006
sigh.. today went granny hse.. ate..laugh..played.. blah. went cut hair.. damn it. my precious hair is gone. the auntie kept yakking and yakking then i didnt say cut short. i just say cut "bao" which is cut "thin" la. then it was like.. zzz.. my precious hair is gone. she just stop and say "oops.still long la.can grow one". what the heck..?? i was like ..!$@#!%$!%^ in my heart.haaz.. hmm.. today is so boring.. tmr is mothers' day. haaz.. sigh. so boring. mon no sch..tues marking day.. wed no sch. im beginning to hate holidays. ): sigh.. o man. im aching. can u feel it..? ):Labels: family
( 7:50 PM )
& Friday, May 12, 2006
okay. IM BORED. so totally bored to tears! sigh. hes bored too. bored til hes straing at his ceiling. both of us are like complete strangers now. theres nothing much to say online.if only i can get to see him in person. all the words will start flowing out of my mind non-stop. "absence makes the heart fonder" ? what the heck. they forgot to add "at the same time turns pple into strangers". SIGH. ): so bored.
because im living in a kind of inertia.i know something has to change.know that i cannot go on living,or not living, like this.but i duno what to do,i duno what steps to take next,how to change this.Labels: feelings.
( 4:19 PM )
& Thursday, May 11, 2006
3 things.
1. love isnt enough.you have to cherish the people you love. saying "i love you" isnt ever enough, but you have to show them you love them each and every day,even when life threatens to get in the way.
2. The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they are alive,well and kicking. ( i love you.i may not have told you often enough,but i do.)
3.he is short.ever-so-slightly tubby but in a cuddly,attractive way,and incredibly jolly. i love him just that way,in every way.
(:Labels: feelings.
( 11:15 PM )
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WOOHOO! last day of mye! =D =D =D heez! =D went to celebrate with friends. haaz. andrew,wenzong, michelle (aw), anqin, doris n i went lunch-ing tgthr. heez. went jp. roamed around. decided too boring..? and not much food variety. heez. went westmall. ate swensens. haaz. the best part is dors n i forgot to bring enuff money out. LOL.we only got..6 dollars plus each..? pathetic right.haaz.then we just ordered double scopes and banana split..? smth like that. then we shared. haaz. the rest ordered pasta n everything! doris n i just ook from them. =D all tgthr it was $98.29. haaz.at first we were like digging out money.then we realised we are short of 2 dollars! in the end anqin found a 2 dollar note somewhere and it was like.. PHEW! heez.for an awful moment i tot we need to wash plates or call someone to rescue us. haaz.. michelle and andrew so wei da! paid the most. esp michelle. haaz. so all of us now owe her money. haaz! was very fun tho. =D laughed and bonded. heez. =} andrew is so lame! he made me laugh til everyone said my face is totally red and everything. heez. =x really must laugh all my feelings out mah. =x hmm..swensens was so cold. ): i really needed his warmth. ): o well.. i'll get his warmth after his olevels. ): *giantic sigh* hmm..i hope. hmm.. OYA. back to mye. heh. =x tdy's paper onewas like.. easy..? heh. =x hope i can pass with flying colours! no la. b3 can alrdy. heh. O MAN. have PTI on 26th may! ): stupid parent teacher interacting. make it sound so nice. "interacting". telling tales more like it. =x hmm. o well.. hope everything goes smoothly.. haaz. o my.. can anybody tell me when o levels start and end..? ): i need to count down. heh. =xLabels: school. grrr.
( 5:02 PM )
& Wednesday, May 10, 2006
hmm.emaths over.it was okay. like real. hmm. phys n chem mcq tmr. haaz..yay! last day! sigh.for him its not. its going to be like.. the horrors. sigh. ): i simply hate o levels man.how i wish o levels will be like.. only test one subj which u can choose then end in one day then freedom. it'd be so much easier this way. ): quick! o levels! quick be done.... i cant wait for this yr's o levels to be over. even though if it makes my o levels just around the corner.. ): i cant take it anymore! hurry! i hate o levels. ):the big Os indeed. the big meanie Os that is. ): hes still sick..? i duno. =x he sounded fine over the phone ytd. o well. i cant trust telephones these days. it'd be 1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000% better if i were to get to take a gd look at him personally. ): it has been donkey years since i look at him! ): sort of. o well.. 1 week..? ): how i wish my bdae dae never ended. so i'll still be right next to him. nonono. how i wish the 143 bus somehow got swallowed up n buried beneathe the earth n soil n everything. so i'll still be with him. ): not like now. damn the Os. damn the grounding. damn everything! ): sigh. ): how i wish.. ):
heyboydontyouknowimmissingyousobadly?
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dontyouknowonesoftoypolarbearwontcheermeup?
dontyouknowihatewaitingaimlessly?
dontyouknowiloveyousomuchithurts?
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dontyouknowthisfeelingsucks?
dontyouknowthiswholesituationissuckingthelifeoutofme?
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( 11:58 AM )
& Tuesday, May 09, 2006
hmm. today had poa. paper starts at 1045am. hee. yay. hmm. poa was shitty. everyone seemed so confident that they could pass. ): o well..at lest i rmb-ed what sis thought me. but its not enuff tho. ): o well.. blah. hmm. o man. it has been 5 days. 5 terrible, aching days. ): *sigh* emaths tmr. then sci paper 1 on thurs. free of studying starts exactly on thurs aftnn! heez. yay! iwanttocelebratetheendofmyewithhim. truetheresnothingtocelebratecoshisolevelsarecomingbutijustwanttobewithmyhoney afternotseeinghimforfivedreadfultorturousdays.
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If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever.. oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star I'll be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your loveLabels: school. grrr.
( 2:56 PM )
& Monday, May 08, 2006
haaz..ytd was busy studying for hist. heh. sort of. was on the phone with haykel for about 2 hours..?!?! haaz. "studied" tgthr. heh. then somehow we ended up discussing about watching movie with zj nxt mon. haaz. then we conference lo. heh. for about another hour..? arnd thr. heh. o well. but in the end i still learnt about hist. heez. then..lit n hist paper tdy. for hist.. hmm.. this time round i did the essay first. haaz. i was so confident i could ans. then the more i wrote,the more jumbled up i became. all i could think of was.. "o shit.my fave pen is running out of ink." LOL.did not have time to complete my conclusion of source base qns. haaz.. the 1c if im not wrong. after that..lalala. went canteen for a quick drink of milo then went back up. lit exam after that..? quite okay la. just that i dont know how to express myself properly. i know how to say out but dont know how to express in flowery language. haaz.shall go english tution. LOL! haaz. =x haaz.. my right hand was like so numb kay. wrote so much. so glad ive extra pen. heh. =x o man. my 2nd fave pen is running out of ink too. =x heh. o well.. wasted 1 n the 1/2 hours..? damn it. my patience is running out kay. i hate to wait esp if ive to wait for nothing. blah. im not going to wait tmr.nor tmr tmr. nor tmr tmr tmr. im such a fool.but i still love you.heez. =} Labels: school. grrr.
( 3:09 PM )
& Saturday, May 06, 2006
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o went shopping with my sis. heez. walked for 5 hours plus..? heh. oooooh i love shopping! heez. =] then bought some stuffs.. lalala~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING WEE! o man! finally 15! haaz. =} o well..silly me.he wont be reading this anyway. haaz. =x damn it! ive been slacking this 2 days! and im not enjoying it one bit. mummy n daddy gone for 3 days and at the same time i cant get to meet him for 3 days..?!?!?! hes sick. ): get well soon huh. nonono. silly me again! he also wont be reading this anyway. heez. noooooooo! still the same.. ah! im worried. heh. got to nag at him to drink more water alrdy.=x heh. o well..im crazy. heh. i always go insane when i miss someone. heez. LALALA.Labels: family
( 9:13 PM )
& Friday, May 05, 2006
SIGH! ):Labels: random
( 7:20 PM )
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haaz. chinese paper sucked. totally sucked man! i was like.. 1/2 aslp while reading the compres. ): so many compres to do! ): somemore the weather was so nice. if i were in bed la. haaz. blah man. yay! im the queen of the house now! wahahaha! xD but totally bored. =\ o well.. dum dee dee dum~Labels: school. grrr.
( 11:10 AM )
& Thursday, May 04, 2006
yewbearbear the 2nd! heez. tell me hes cute! o whatever. i know hes cute can alrdy. haaz. =x
haaz. happy birthday to me. haaz. lalala~ i love yewbearbear. haaz. now ive a yewbearbear no.1 and a yewbearbear no.2. haaz. =D o wow! i simply love today man. everything's so magical. haaz! =x a long bus ride never felt so short before. heez. =} and and and.. im gaining lots of weight! exam period i always eat n study but never run. man! ive not ran for like donkey years! since the nationals cross-sountry man. o well... apart from running to the toilet or to the lift or to school or for the bus la. haaz.. =x man! i feel like a pig now. o well.. a happy pig. heez. =} im too happy to continue typing. lemme float up into heaven. wait wait. im in heaven alrdy. heez. lemme continue floating.. =}Labels: feelings.
( 9:08 PM )
& Wednesday, May 03, 2006
oooooh! phys was okay..but i think i'll fail. haaz. maths p1 was okay.. i hope i get an a again. haaz. but im really too careless la. ): tmr ss. haaz.. 9am dismiss! =D yay! haaz. and 940am is when i officially turn 15! heez. 941am is when im 15 and 1 min old. =x heh. man! i hope he dismiss early tmr too! but nevermind. friday mummy n daddy going m'sia. haaz. they'll be back on sunday?? haaz! yay! *create havoc* heh. =x ooooh! i cant wait for exams to be over. *thinks of all the fun im going to have* haaz. lalala~ im crazy. manimisshimsomuch.Labels: school. grrr.
( 1:37 PM )
& Tuesday, May 02, 2006
ooooooh! yay! my counting down is done~ heez. 1 month. heez. =} yenohymevolevolevoli. heez. =} ooh today's eng n chem were okay.. hope i do well in my paper one-s. heez. =} o well. tmr's phys p3 n maths p1. man! my phys all running haywire in my brain. ): damn. wish me luck man..Labels: feelings.
( 8:25 PM )
& Monday, May 01, 2006
sitting on the bench watching the sun go down,
looking at clouds, like hair of a clown.
looking at the birds flying liberally,
listening their merry chirps and they fly homewards happily.
sounds of mothers calling to their children,
ordering them home before their dinner burns.
dusk slowly sets upon me,
no sun but a moon i see.
thinking of the days spent, you and me,
o yesyes it's especially the time spent with you honey.
heez. 10.20pm---> 3 hours and 40 mins. <3
Labels: feelings.
( 10:16 PM )
