& Friday, September 29, 2006
haha.. cant resist the temptation to online online online. this is getting too dreadful! o well 8 more papers to go!
overview:
1. pens tend to go out of ink once youre over with eng and chi p1 and p2.
2. mrs sin is cute. i like!
3. staring into space is inevitable during exams.
4. feeling hungry makes me sleepy.
5. feeling full makes me sleepier.
6. studying at home makes me sleepy too.
7. studying in libraries makes me sleepy AND cold.
8. studying, itself, makes me sleepy AND hungry.
9. nevertheless, this whole week is spent studying in the library with doris. (:
10. chem is so screwed up.
11. going to mug hard for phys.
12. im missing those afternoon n evening naps i use to take.
13. im so going to gain weight by the end of eoy.
14. brain juice almost all used up.
haas.. too bored. anyway this sums up this week! eat, study, eat study, sleep! hmmm. naps cannot be carried out at home. o well, at least that applies to my home! ): the bloody construction workers go drilling and drilling and drilling! and when they stopped, im too pissed to feel sleepy alrdy. zzz.. o well, they never seem to stop anyway. sigh! hmmm.. anyway whatever. i cant really trust people arnd me. one moment youre so close to them, the next moment, you'll never know when, they just turn their backs on you and let you down. haas.. not implying on anyone though. just some.. random thing. hmmm.. filled with insecurity and uncertainty? whatever.. i just want some reasurrance that everything's going to end up well. o well.. delusional desolation? i will survive! i must. lol. this is getting so.. zzz.. o great. the drilling is stil going on. blah. ):Labels: school. grrr.
( 4:15 PM )
& Monday, September 25, 2006
treasure the present.
(not updating til eoy ends. I THINK) all the best people! Labels: feelings.
( 3:06 PM )
& Friday, September 22, 2006
hmmmm. haas im free tdy! training cancelled last min n.. pop! im here. haaz.. hmmmmm.. past few days were rushy! all rush rush and more rush. rush homeworks.. rush revisions.. rush through topics in class.. in fact, i even rushed thru dinner at home! tsk. hmmm.. ytd was a so very long day! mr yip took over sel early in the morn for phys for 1 period. then after that 1 period of phys, it was 2 periods of emaths. then 2 periods of chem. then 1 period pf phys again cos no bloody pe. then recess was "took over" by phys cos i cldnt finish wkbk on time. then 2 periods of phys again after a supposedly-recess. then 3 periods of poa!!!!!! then.. 210 supposed to be dismissed but then had emaths remedial til almst 5!! ytd was a maths + science day. ): so headache-y. ): reached home blah blah. watched alittle tv n online-d for awhile n then pop off to do hmwk! did til almst 12! ): gave up n went to catch my forty winks. o well.. tdy was.. zzz.. no comments whatever. hmmmmm. i feel good doing good deeds. try doing something kind to someone! you'll feel like you're on cloud nine every min for the rest of the day! (: anyway. im so dislike-ing Mrs M. her sarcasm doesnt work well with mine. o wells, it doesnt work well with anyone else too. go away man. anyway. im feeling good. (: mug to numb up. cool way! (:Labels: feelings.
( 4:24 PM )
& Tuesday, September 19, 2006
today's the 7th month since we told each other we had this feeling for each other. today is the day we both become single again. yay? this takes time.. im just.. not used to this hollow emptiness within me.Labels: feelings.
( 4:55 PM )
& Monday, September 18, 2006
shakira- illegal
Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined
And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on
So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's here, it isn't here where you belong
Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along
But you don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heartLabels: feelings., lyrics
( 2:59 PM )
& Sunday, September 17, 2006
im so freaking pissed. i heard things from ms azlin that he said. im so pissed. i hate people talking BEHIND my back especially about things that ARENT true. im so pissed. the last thing i expect is words like those coming out of HIS mouth. they hurt me. i was being considerate, thinking for his studies and everything. apparently, my kindness went DOWN the drain, clearly NOT appreciated. im not going to bother ANYMORE. im going to be single TOMOROW. in fact, i shld have done this LONG ago. many months ago, instead of letting MYSELF suffer in vain. that bastard. CLINGY? your ass. now i know who REALLY cares. his friends and my friends are obviously MORE caring than him, alone. i actually want to make a clean break during the period before his Os but after his prelims so i wont so-called "AFFECT HIS STUDIES". im actually allowing MY own studies to be affected. rather mine than his, cos his is the big Os while mine is just EOY. i clearly thought WRONG. because, apparently, the more time im allowing to give to our relationship, the more he MISTAKES my goodwill. fine. i shall NOT be too kind anymore. we ARE going to be so OVER. it's going to be so damn freaking difficult when i still have feelings, strong feelings in fact. but o well. this is the LAST straw. you've let me down. screw YOU, joel. sorry but im just so pissed.
- heav'n has no rage like love to hatred turn'd, nor hell a fury like a woman scorned. -
Labels: feelings.
( 1:30 PM )
& Saturday, September 16, 2006
saw 2 very gentleman-men on the train just now. they were strangers and dont know each other and on the train earlier than sis and i. means we came in dont know how long after they came la. he was standing already. when there were 2 free seats, they sat down. but after 1 stop, the stood up and let the grumpy sis n i sit. kind of them. and one of them alighted at JE while the other one alighted with us, at BL. kind of them. wish s'pore has more of this kind of guys. (: im seriously seriously seriously going to mug starting from tmr. Labels: feelings.
( 8:46 PM )
& Tuesday, September 12, 2006
cos i dont know you anymore.
i dont recognise this place.
thie pictureframes have changed and so has your name.
we dont talk much anymore,
we keep running from the pain.
but what i wouldnt give to see your face again.
(savage garden- i dont know you anymore.)Labels: feelings.
( 9:53 PM )
& Sunday, September 10, 2006
i need you. im hanging by a thread. snap me off or help me up. either way, i need you. ):
-im weak,yes it's true.Labels: feelings.
( 10:59 PM )
& Friday, September 08, 2006
im so sick and tired. when is life going to be better? im so disappointed in you guys. did we not inform you about trainings? did we not msg n msg n msg just to remind you guys? did we not even "advertise" training on msn? im sick of lies okay. we're sick of lies. this is seriously the least we expect. lies from you guys. *he said he wont be coming cos hes going to SOME PLACE and will be staying overnight there too. i came back n find him online too at arnd 8plus. why are you even lying to some thing you guys love? or not? we're sick of you guys giving promises n not ful-filling them! it's horrible. totally horrible. fucking horrible. it's not as if you all dont know about training. you guys knew! screw this man. cant all of us be like last time? i guess not eh. fuck. im sick of seeing attitudes. i guess we all are! im may be one of the "attitude"-er but hey. not too much please. not too much. when is life ever going to be happily ever after? sick of things piling up and up. one problem not solved and some other trouble comes knocking on my door. wtf man. wtf! pardon my language. im just glad some other pple are still loyal.
*identity hidden for privacy purpose.Labels: family, track
( 10:36 PM )
&
first thing first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDIE! haaz. okay.. htaik han. haaz.. =D hmmm.. training later and im bored now. bye.Labels: feelings.
( 11:41 AM )
& Thursday, September 07, 2006
nothing much. phys remedial. reached class 910am n suprisingly mr yip stepped in at 915am. shldnt have rushed. -.- phys went on and on til 1130? yup. surprisingly i didnt lose interest. =) released at 1130? went pioneer mall with the ever-noisy doris and then went back her hse then out again to frontier to eat. =) saw the so-very-cute jian hui! =D and his bro(jianjie) n mum too.. hmmm. then.. walked arnd jp then was bored. pursuaded doris to come back home. cos i so want to sleep! slept for 10 mins nia. -.- doris too noisy. +.+ still.. overslept. =x reached sch for maths remedial at 220? haha. walked in with suhaizat. he also late. expected. =x mrs ramesh was in a super good mood! suhaizat, doris n i walked in late she still smile and say "wah you 3 are so late." she still sit on tcher's table swing leg. wah. o.0 remedial went on til 4pm then 20 mins break! then continue.. then dismissed at 5.28pm. she said early dismissal. -.- really early. by 2 mins. -.- haaz.. reached home arnd 6. =x was planning for tmr's training with doris la. hardworking right? =x o wells. wtf is he up to.Labels: school. grrr.
( 7:21 PM )
& Wednesday, September 06, 2006
evangelion lyrics- fly me to the moon
fly me to the moon
let me sing among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you
there are many other versions la. but somehow i like any version. okay sounds stupid. whatever. i like this song la. hmmm. im disappointed. haaz. in myself? haha. Labels: lyrics
( 9:45 PM )
&
continuation of photos from the bukit timah thing. (:
the guys stuffing their things in one locker. -.-
hilary! i dont blame her for looking tired. heh.
kavin n norman. looking at some stuff. monkey i guess.
pure drinking water! lol.
looking at some stuff? worms?
shafie so ever macho! heez.
one of our resting point!
yay! reaching the ending soon! i guess.. since hilary is so happy. heh.
suhaizat.
enjoying his food. =]
doris n hilary n me. -.-
Labels: family, track
( 1:02 PM )
&
back from the world of macbeth. im going to sleep later. zzz.. went to sch with only one macbeth bk n the papers tucked, folded in the bk n pens in my pocket. anqin was like.. o.o heh. nothing much. my illness is getting my drowsy. zzz.. not in the mood. not now. not later. o well. maybe later.Labels: school. grrr.
( 11:16 AM )
& Tuesday, September 05, 2006
lei bin zor hou duo. ghor yao hou dor ye siong man lei. dat mm dat? ):
sighsighsigh.
reached home not long ago. had dinner n bathed. sigh. lit remedial tmr. so not looking forward to it. damn early. even when it ends at 930am, usually it's not even my "wake up time" during hols! ): shall go home n continue slping after that man! ): sighsighsigh. Labels: feelings.
( 7:52 PM )
& Monday, September 04, 2006
nothing much.. still sniffling here and there.. drats.
mon-hmwk.
tues-traing with doris ; buy blouse -.- ; back n hmwk.
wed-lit remedial ; hmwk + revise
thurs-phys n maths remedial ; revise
fri-maybe training.. ; revise
saturday- out? ; revise
sunday-tution; revise
mon-sch
that sums up this week's hols. blah.
he came and changed my world,
turned it upside down.
he even manage to make thorns feel like fur
and the quietest lane as exciting as a town.
but when he left, my world turned black,
all the partyings died down and my spirit drifted out and away.
my heart gradually sunk like sack with clay
and motivation to carry on is what i lack.
sitting aimlessly, staring at the sky,
pondering on the past, so beautiful.
thinking about how he always got me high,
all the miracles he always do.
wont he come back and do his stuff
cos ive been dying to hear myself, once again, laugh.
double blah.
steve irwin.. ): sigh.. ): god bless his soul..Labels: school. grrr.
( 3:30 PM )
& Sunday, September 03, 2006
fergie- wont let you fall
[Verse:]
i'll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
And you will be my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow
[Pre-Chorus:]
And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go,
i'll follow To the end, back again
You know
[Chorus:]
won't let you fall
Fall out of love
cos together we'll be holding on
cos all we have is us
won't let you go
Go away again
Because life don't mean nothing at all
If I don't have your love
[Verse:]
I will dry your tears
Take away your fears
Let me be your shelter
Your heart is safe in here
So beautiful and pure
There's nothing I would not endure
Oh, love has got me blinded
I see it all so clear
[Pre-Chorus:]
And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go,
i'll follow
To the end, back again
You know
[Chorus:]
won't let you fall
Fall out of love
cos together we'll be holding on
cos all we have is us
won't let you go
Go away again
Because life don't mean nothing at all
If I don't have your love
[Bridge:]
im down for you for whatever
Anything you going through
What's mine is yours
Every little thing
I got you
Even when winds will change
Come smashing down and crashing on you
[Chorus:]
won't let you fall
Fall out of love
cos together we’ll be holding on
cos all we have is us
won't let you go
Go away again
Because life don't mean nothing at all
If I don't have your love
haas. hmmm. im ill. dust allergy/flu/fever. it's all the same. zzzz..Labels: lyrics
( 6:13 PM )
& Saturday, September 02, 2006
some of the photos of ytd's trip which were in my cam! (: badly taken. the rest with doris in her hp. (:
the two lizards joint at the tails. =x
shafie n suhaizat caught resting! =x
er some of the guys behind.. norman n kavin..? yep. admiring something on the ground..
clearer photo of shafi n suhaizat resting. heh.
o wells. after the whole thing, nrman re-unites with his hp. haas.
hilary. waving her bottle. =x
doris "doing some kind of stunt".
hil! (:
ah ling.
relaxing..
caught. =x
kav and norman enjoying ice-creams.
okay. done. i was bored. im still bored.
"happy" 5th month. =/Labels: track
( 9:49 PM )
& Friday, September 01, 2006
just came back from bukit timah with the usual track pple. it was damn tiring!!!!!! omfg man. i thought i wont survive! climbed over 200 steps! omfg. i was like.. HELP ME! stairs are so not me. o wells. at least it helped to firm butts and thighs..so.. i never lose out! heh. was in the "jungle" for like.. 2 hours plus? climbing n climbing n climbing! zzzzzzz..! then we went to eat lunch?? yup! after changing of course! (: kavin, suhaizat, shafie and norman ate nasi goreng? and it tasted like fried noodles( char guo tiao). haaz.. doris, hilary n i ate prata! yumyum! hees. it was wierd though. they have many varieties of pratas just that they dont have plain one. =.= altgthr we had 10% discount. LOL. heh. coffeeshop also can discount one. =x walked to courts and browsed arnd.. then bus-ed home! and here i am! im going to soak my feet in warm water and pamper them man! hees. photos next time! =]Labels: track
( 2:46 PM )
